Saii-san

One leads to two Two leads to three Three leads to four Four leads to more More leads to guilt Guilt leads to shame Shame leads to pain Yet the next day starts And I'm at it again. Once I'm out All I think about is more When I get some I'm shaking to the core I know it is dumb But these guilty habits Bring me up then bring me down I tear myself to bits I make myself drown.

Heat Satisfaction Lust Attraction Heat Warmth Presence and life Blood is the life force inside us It is hot and prescious We can feel this warmth through skin contact It awakens our conscious Satisfaction Synonymous with joy Satisfaction isn't always guaranteed It is fought for Started out as a goal or seed Lust A product of love and attraction Is not considered subtle A chemical reaction Breath on the neck Fingers trail down your back A kiss A hug Pleasure Often mistaken for love Our human urges to please and be pleased Attraction The strong magnetism between things Beauty Neccesity Desire A bundle of kindling ignite Burning a bright fi

Many tears have been shed on the needles on which you lie your head You bite your lip You fight the pain You try not to cry But it's back again It's always a battle Leaving you shaken Leaving you rattled Curled up in ball Tears stream down your face You wanna say goodbye to it all But this decision is not for you to place Lost In despair The lowly gleaming times when you are actually smiling It doesn't always feel like enough Life is hard There is no substitute You take it as is Or you give it all up Working with your pain is hard But giving up would be a bigger mistake "You've got to hold on", they tell you "You've got to hold on for god

Cold Frozen Empty The ice flows through my veins Warm Burning Whole My heart tries to keep under control I fall to the ground But I make so sound Froze over my still beating heart I scream aloud Begin to sink I am almost lost Brought to the brink Inside me something stirs We can't be sure of what Is it her It's definitely not Crystallized With molten core I try to fight it Why I can't be sure

I Need you You mean the world me I wish you could see You Are amazing You make my heart Go blazing I am the guy That you need You Don't know why But I can see That you need me I Will give anything To be with you Yes that's what I'll do You Just can't see That you're a part of me That I need I Love you There's nothing I wouldn't to do Just to comfort you You Are beautiful You make my heart explode Or at least that's what I'm told. I Want you To be free And go see the world with me

You're right I don't wanna fight I wanna be there for you I hope we can start anew I know I was wrong But please don't give up on me Please don't say "so long" I wish at least that you can see You mean the world to me I know I'm not the best conversationalist But please don't get pissed I'm just better when we're alone Or when it's just us on the phone I want to say I'm sorry I've been quite lame You seem I'm not the best at this But when I'm away from you You are always missed. I love the way your voice sounds I must just be spell bound You make my heart beat fast I just want this love to last I'll do the best I can do Just let me be with

The day we first met At first it was awkward Our friends trying to get us together It seemed pretty absurd But the days got brighter We began to grow on each other We had those all nighters You rocked my world But I was afraid to get involved We shared are secrets Our friendship evolved Adrianna you mean the world to me I can see it now crystal clear At first I wasn't able to see But now I feel so happy when you're near You're cute,fun, and beautiful That red hair of yours is damn fine I wanna protect you and love you like no other Babe I'm glad you're mine.

As darkness covers the land Shadows are shed from the moon Creatures awaken Good and bad The light is taken People flee to the safety of their homes But not I The moon brings with it Energy Power Beauty I walk the streets alone Neither nervous nor in fear For the beauty of the night Makes my mind feel so clear There is an elegance of the twilight Nothing can bring Except with the moon above Master of the night Eyes focus and adjust Things begin to move and sway in the shadows But there is no fear here Tricks of the eyes Imaginations going wild But when you slow your breath And listen close The sounds of the dark begin to sound like music W

AGAIN I am in shock, Cold and emotionless like a rock. I am strong, I will smile as I sing this song. I am not alone, No matter how many people have gone. I will live, Even if living hasn't a reason to give. I will fight, We have a choice and we have a right. I can't go back, But I can go forward, so I shall pick up the slack. I'm not gonna lie, Right now I could just lie down and cry. I am in pain, But I shall feel no shame.